I'm So Confused

Both of these background pictures mean something to me. 

 

The top of of the B-52 bomber I took while stationed in U-Tapao Thailand and again in Guam.    I was on a bomb load team that loaded bombs on them for missions over Viet Nam.  I don't like to think that I helped to kill or injure someone but in reality I know that some of those bombs did just that.   I think about that sometimes and am sad  but in a war situation sometimes you have to do what is necessary to help out your side (country) - I will have to live with that.

 

The bottom picture is the Church I grew up in - St John Presbyterian in Tampa, Florida.  That experience and the memories it gave me are priceless;  I wish I could relive that experience and this time pay more attention  (or be more active) than I did back then.   I was fortunate that both of my parents were on the same page when it came to religion / church and spent a lot of time working and serving their church.    I have spent a lot of time over the years looking for a church like St John Presbyterian but they just do not exist anymore.  Most churches today (including the one I go to now) have a contemporary style with guitars, drums and banjoes have replaced organs and the music is not the old hymns I used to love.  I am not fond of a lot of change but that one I have to learn to get along with.

 

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